i don't know what came into me but i just feel like blogging this out and i swear this will be an emo entry.

memories exist because they're there for us to learn and cherish. yea, i'm very happy during that period of time, when we went drinking together, talk cock sessions and seeing your effort to do something which is very simple for someone you loved once. since reality doesn't allow us to be friends and maybe because of certain misunderstandings or let's just say we're selfish, we just think about ourselves. however, since we were once friends for a short period of time, i really do appreciate the things u've done and i'm really glad at least you've treated me as a friend of yours before. we can't say that you're selfish or whatever, it's human nature. i really don't know what is the cause that made you went into some deep shit, and i guess i don't have to know. i can only hope that you can stand up on your feet as soon as possible. No worries, no other motives, i won't gain a cent from you after you recover, i just meant well.

maybe you thought that it's harsh that we treated you this way and as friends, we didn't really help you out. but in a way or another, i rather feel that this is a valuable lessons for all ur friends around you and urself to learn. It's not that people around u are harsh towards you, but rather this world is rotating in this manner. at least there's a lesson learnt, and this price you paid teaches you something that not everyone will experience.

you might think all these are bullshit, up to you :) maybe i'm just the soft hearted one that cant really put all these behind me.