okay, back for some thoughts. Nothing much happened recently. Life for me, is still erm, how should i describe it.. sucks? Now i realised something. An ITE student did the same crime as a JC student, both charged by the police, bring up to the juvenile court. However, the JC student can merely get away by just a warning, but the ITE student might be sentenced a fine, or a probation. Why is the society like that? Can't an ITE student be kind at heart? Is it that if you can study means that you can benefit the society? It is a discrimination happening in our homes that we live in, which is Singapore. The mindset has been set that those can study well means that your character is good, everything about you is good, and those who can't study, is just trash, nothing to the society.

Have been thinking through these few days, what am i to the society? Is it someone insignificant that if one day i vanished into thin air nobody will get affected, or rather maybe lives of some people might get better? like my family members? My brother is right. I have contributed nothing to my family other than troubles and problems. And somehow, i think that i am a nobody in this world, but i don't want to be like this. I want this society to feel the impact that i'm here, contributing something much important. I want to make this society cannot do without me, and i'm gonna start today. I still don't know what am i going to do but, i shall plan my time, doing something more useful and constructive rather than rotting at home and doing nothing. Find a job, feed myself, that's it for now.